AAAHHHHHH!!!!!

OMG my NCLEX-RN exam is scheduled for April 27, 2010 at 0800!!! I feel like throwing up, AHHHH!




Please dear God help me to pass!!!!

More likely the month of May ...

Well I graduate from nursing school in a matter of days! (This Saturday!!) I am looking forward to being off of the nursing school merry-go-round! It will be at least 4-6 weeks until I take my state exam so we decided to try again after I PASS my NCLEX. (More likely the month of May) That should relieve a LOT of stress and help us be successful. I really hope that we are able to get pregnant this next try otherwise we will have to wait until after we pay off at least a few credit cards until we can try again!!! It is just so very expensive!

Keep us in your prayers that this next try is successful! Hugs.

March ...

As much as I hate the idea I think we are going to wait until I graduate to try again (end of March).

We looked at our finances and even with some help from friends and family we really cannot afford to do another fertility treatment until I graduate and start to make some money. The first fertility treatment we did maxed out a few of our credit cards and even though a frozen embryo transfer is "only" a little over $2,000 ... it's just too much right now.

A part of me really hates being responsible and feels as though I am missing my opportunity to be a mom. Yet, I know that God will take care of things and simply waiting 3-4 months is not going to change much of anything.

I really just want to be a mom now. :o(

(Sigh) ...

Just one big sign ... I want a baby. I hope that it happens and that we are able to get pregnant with a healthy baby on our next try but there are no guarantees. Right now I am so busy with school I barely remember that I have 2 embryos still waiting for us ... some day soon, hopefully. (Sigh)

Another world away ...

School is so all consuming right now that the thought of having a baby added into our family right now seems another world away ... I feel so removed from normal everyday life that the thought of kids almost seems foreign.
I am just trying to survive school at this point, the thought of a sweet little baby is still an attractive one, but one that seems so far away and so very out of reach.

Baby what?

Yeah I am so distracted right now with school I sometimes think ... "baby what?"
I am glad God knows what he's doing because I so don't have time to worry about getting pregnant!

Trust in God ...

Well I am certainly learning to trust in God in more than one area of my life right now. I believe I understand why we did not get pregnant this round of fertility treatments. This quarter of nursing school is the most stressful I have ever had to endure, so far! I would not be able to handle this quarter with even one more stressor. I can barely take it as is ... I can't do this all on my own and am praying that God will carry me through this terrible barren wasteland of a valley that has blasted me out of nowhere!