I know in my head that "now is not the time" but it still hurts in my heart. I am doing much better with trusting that God is going to take care of not only our needs but also our "heart's desires". I feel a bit like I was missed on the "heart's desires" list ... 7 years running. :o( I see all the left over fertility medications in my frig and think ... wow these cost almost $2k and they EXPIRE next March and there is nothing I can do about it except wait, awesome.
Big sigh ... :o(
At least I have a new job to distract me ... for now. :o)