Each new day

I have a hard time with the whole "not being pregnant / not having kids thing" when I least expect it. I was just having a casual conversation when I had to choke back tears discreetly during my answer to the age old question "how's it going on the baby making front?" I am excited to tell people that we are going to do IVF during the summer ... I just didn't expect to feel that sense of loss that comes with not having a child of my own. School really does keep me busy yet; each new day is a struggle. I was fine just caught off guard. I look forward to becoming pregnant ... all I can do is wait & pray. :o)

As a girl ...

As a girl I would just like to be without "that time of month" for a while, ya' know! I am actually happy for the first time to not be prego only because we booked a cruise for September and you can't go on the boat if you are further than 24 weeks along. That would be the only reason to be happy about it, the rest is pretty lame. As girls we totally get the raw end of the deal on that whole setup! I am sure that is TMI for everyone but that's what is going through my head right now. That's what happens when you stay up frequently past 2 AM!

Busy

Keeping busy has greatly helped to distract me from our baby journey sorrows. I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow so we will see if I am still OK after that ...