Step 1

OK, we finally have a calender to begin our treatments. The first treatment takes approximately 2 months to execute so I am on step one of the calender, begin birth control pills. It seems a bit counter productive but it is to help regulate my cycle and "calm down" my ovaries before all the fun meds begin. I am excited to actually start the real thing. :o) If everything goes according to plan I will be taking a pregnancy test by about 10 September! Wish us luck!

Details ...

There are so many tiny details to work out when going through fertility treatments. It is so not as simple as most people trying to have kids. "OK lets have sex tonight" and they are good. Oh no, there are ultrasounds, blood draws, medication schedules and etc to work around both of our work schedules and vacations! It is already exhausting and we have just started with financing and working on our calender/schedule. LOL. I just hope it all works out. That's what really matters ... bringing home a healthy baby, or two. :o)

Change of plans ...

Well, apparently there was a miscommunication between Michael & I because we ARE going to go ahead and move forward with our treatments! Mikel & I spent all day Thursday tracking down financing for the treatment. (Very stressful & exhausting). Next step is an ultrasound tomorrow. Wish us luck!

Brakes ...

I am sad to announce that we have had to put the brakes on when it comes to our fertility treatment planned for this summer. I am very sad to post pone having a baby yet AGAIN but we think it is the right thing to do for us. We financially can not actually afford the treatment but might be able to swing it for a few months before I graduate if we move things back a bit. So, instead of having our 1st IVF treatment in August we are going to have it instead in December during the Christmas break. I will be able to start working after graduation and we could be at a bit better place financially. We have also decided that people do "premarital" counseling ... why not "pre-children" counseling? What couple couldn't benefit from improving their communication & conflict resolution skills? :o) I am excited to work on "us" before adding kids to the mix. I am sad to push back having kids but it is a better plan for us. It sucks but that is what we need to do. In the end as long as we end up with healthy children, that's what matters!

Each new day

I have a hard time with the whole "not being pregnant / not having kids thing" when I least expect it. I was just having a casual conversation when I had to choke back tears discreetly during my answer to the age old question "how's it going on the baby making front?" I am excited to tell people that we are going to do IVF during the summer ... I just didn't expect to feel that sense of loss that comes with not having a child of my own. School really does keep me busy yet; each new day is a struggle. I was fine just caught off guard. I look forward to becoming pregnant ... all I can do is wait & pray. :o)

As a girl ...

As a girl I would just like to be without "that time of month" for a while, ya' know! I am actually happy for the first time to not be prego only because we booked a cruise for September and you can't go on the boat if you are further than 24 weeks along. That would be the only reason to be happy about it, the rest is pretty lame. As girls we totally get the raw end of the deal on that whole setup! I am sure that is TMI for everyone but that's what is going through my head right now. That's what happens when you stay up frequently past 2 AM!

Busy

Keeping busy has greatly helped to distract me from our baby journey sorrows. I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow so we will see if I am still OK after that ...