Busy

Keeping busy has greatly helped to distract me from our baby journey sorrows. I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow so we will see if I am still OK after that ...

Hard to wait ...

It is so very difficult to wait ... I just really want to be pregnant & to be a mommy... to be someones mommy, what a special thing. :o) Its hard to wait!

JUNE

The next steps for us to become pregnant will most likely happen around June. There are a lot of little details like meeting with the finance people, blood draws & tests that need to be ran. I have to go on birth control pills for 3 weeks/3 months prior to being given the follicle (egg) stimulating hormones they have me on to harvest multiple eggs. So, June is when we will start on some of those projects to hopefully have a (successful) treatment in August. That would be cool to have a baby by next May. It feels like FOREVER away but, well worth the wait.
Nursing school has really helped distract me from the agonizing patients I have had to develop to cope with our long baby journey.
I have also decided to do Weight Watchers and exercise so that I can be healthier in general. Especially since carrying a child is hard enough, without nursing school or the possibility of twins. (I don't even want to think about the weight gain on that one!)
:o) I am greatly anticipating our IVF treatments because those are the treatments that should work for us. I am grateful / thankful to God that we at least have a good chance to conceive, even if it is not how we were hoping. This journey has certainly been challenging yet, there is still hope. I am very thankful for that! :o)

:o(

Well, no such luck. I am really bummed that the IUI treatments did not work. It would have made things much simpler! I think nursing school has provided an adequate distraction. I am looking forward to doing our IVF treatments but it will take a few months before we get started, we have a lot of saving and fundraising to do. :o) Wish us luck.

Treatment Numero 2

I had an IUI treatment on Wednesday the 18th. We should know if it worked on the 6th or so ... my birthday actually. I might wait to take the preo test until the next day ... it would be a pretty awesome birthday present though!

Attempt number two

Attempt number two has commenced. I started my Clomid on Friday and will be done on Tuesday. I will go in for an ultrasound on the 17th and then I will have a treatment that day or the next. It would greatly simplify things if we could get pregnant with an IUI treatment but I have (we both have) decided that this will be our last IUI treatment before switch to rounds of IVF. We will have to hold off until after the summer probably to save some money and figure out financing. Thank you all again for your prayer, support and friendship.

Not sure how I am doing ...

I have been very busy with nursing school. It has been a pretty good distraction from my fertility sorrows until this last week ... we started our OB & pediatrics rotations. Nothing like rubbing salt in the wound by studying about pregnant women and taking care of kids. Ha, ha ... the irony. At least it is a subject I am very interested in!

Today was really hard. It could have been much worse though.

I will explain ...

I basically decided to take this month off of fertility treatments because I was starting nursing school again and was already stressed enough. I am really glad I didn't have a fertility treatment in retrospect because today I was EIGHT days late for my period!!!! I am almost never later than 3 days and the most I have ever been late is 5 days. I have had really bad lower back pain for 3 days straight ... I don't really ever get lower back pain unless I did strenuous lifting or something. I have not done anything that should cause back pain so I don't know what is up with that. I don't really want to think about the possibility of my body spontaneously aborting ... there is nothing I can do about it at this point. I think I will email the nurse at our fertility clinic though to figure out if my 8 day late period is not to outside of normal with the meds I was on for our last fertility treatment. I am very thankful we didn't have a treatment ... I would have been balling if I started after 8 days! Rough day anyway!!!

On the up side, at my clinical rotation at the hospital today I got to watch a Cesarean birth of twin girls and a regular birth of a little boy. It was fun to be a part of. The families and staff were very sweet.
Time for bed, a very busy rest of the week awaits me!